The countdown is on...

So, it's just one week today until The Big Spin... ONE TINY WEEK?! how did this happen? how has this come around so quickly?!

My main concerns are as follows - Have I trained enough? Will I pass out half way through? What if my legs give up? What if all the other riders sail through without breaking a sweat and I end up having to give up because I can't breathe?!... you get the idea, in summary, I'm worried about failing the challenge.

We've raised a MASSIVE £1,500 so far, which is bloody amazing, but it's also an awful lot of pressure. When I first thought up the idea for 'The Big Spin' I wanted it to be something huge, something that would genuinely be challenging otherwise - what's the point? who's going to sponsor you for doing a measly 5k walk round the block? (apologies to anyone offended by that comment and is currently training for a 5k walk... but you know what I mean, it had to be big).

But then I have to remind myself WHY we're doing this. The challenge is bigger than my legs aching for a while, or me looking like a massive sweaty mess all day whilst people come and gawp at (I mean, support) us. I would do this challenge 10 times over if I meant I could go back in time and have the opportunity to stay with Sienna whilst she was in SCBU and not be discharged without her.

So, when my legs are on fire on the day, I'm hanging off the bike and wondering why on earth I put myself (and a few others!) through this then I'm going to try and remember that no matter how much pain I think I'm feeling, it will be nothing in comparison to the pain in my heart when I had to leave Sienna. There's my motivation and that's what will keep me going. If we can help other families like us? - totally worth it.

P.S. Do not hold me to the 10 times over comment...